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On biting the dust

Well, actually there were two. Two had bitten the dust recently. I recently wound up my first ever start up company, talk about being a wanna be businessman.

I learnt that I wasn't tough enough, fast enough, or sensible enough. At least not yet, it's been a while now. And I'll pick up and continue where I left off. Another new joint-venture company and I'm going. We're still going ok the past 5 months, and we can only get stronger and stronger we hope.

Today I walked past and peered into Evagreen cafe, the most recent occupier of Del-Mooty's pasta, that also closed down suddenly on Sunday night leaving an empty shop on Monday to the surprise of everyone.

It was empty, of course a personal call from the proprietor the day before had forewarned me. Yet still, Lucy H. and me stood outside the empty shop contemplating on how easy it was to fail in business, for every successful start up, there most probably are many more fallen ones, those that fail before the race is run.

It reminded me, work harder, work smarter; don't let people take advantage of you, push on and be concientious in whatever you do.

Don't bite off more than you know you can chew (I mean a HUGE chunk: nothing wrong with being ambitious)

Nostalgia

I feel quite sad today. Perhaps it's got something to do with sitting in this office for hours on end. Perhaps it's lethargy from not moving from my office computer. Maybe it's those iron bars at the front of the door.

I should be happy today, I move to UB's house to commence my housesitting. There's soccer today at 3.30pm, I get to go for touch rugby at 4.30pm.

It's a whole day of sports. :) Sigh, maybe it's just all that repressed energy waiting to explode.

Insomnia

Today I couldn't sleep.

My good friend Velda has just given me CBt. Cognitive Behavioural therapy and anger management training for what I have been feeling today.

I guess just generally anger directed at outcomes, and the "loss" of a better position due to my dealings with more experienced businessmen who just want to get the better of you.

Some people understand, they give you your margin so you can cover operational costs. Some don't. And it's these people that I feel most disgusted about.

They want to pay peanuts and get the best service available. Well done for them. I have tried my best, and I am tired of trying. I have decided that I will take no more nonsense from people who are looking to take advantage of me. I can only take so much before I fight back.

Well. I am getting tired now. Yet my brain is just buzzing and I can't keep it still. Images and replays of conversations that I have held, that I want to hold. The tongue lashing and the things I can do to them to make them realise the errors of their ways.

Am I wrong to want to cause regret? Not hurt or pain. Just regret that they should have treasured our business relationship, my honesty and my efforts more. They can take their business elsewhere if they like.

Screw them. ---> Strikeout. Apologies for crappy html editing.

Erm. I'm not angry. Let them realise the error of their ways!

A Valentine's Letter to a wonderful woman

A time of change, of discovery and joy.

The year of 2005 was a wonder for me. It was that year that I joined my company as their branch representative in Brisbane, a new responsibility. It was the year I joined the QUT Alumni on the Board a place amongst the respected elders of the community and the university.

And in the midst of it all a gentle influence and happiness found.

It has been a wonderful time, to discover again growing to love someone and being loved in return. Who would have thought that I would be able to find such a fine lady to spend my time here with, to go through thick and thin together.

I have always thanked God for giving his blessings in letting us meet, and having her fall in love with me. And from my special lady? An abundance of love, of care, or intelligence, ability and talent. And most importantly; maturity and coupled with an uncomplicated happy outlook in life.

To her I dedicate today, best wishes for a lifetime of happiness and joy wherever you might find it my darling. We might not know the future now, but at this time and at this place, as long as we know what we want now. What we want our future to be…

We have the time to make it happen.

To the wonderful woman in my life, my inspiration, my joy and my happiness!

Thank you for all the time you have stood by me and supported me, when I needed it most.

All the love and kisses you can get!

Yours completely!

Uncertain

I feel very strange lately. But firstly, updates on my life.

I have just spent a wonderful 4 months together with Cherry, with whom I find comfort in every aspect of my life. She is a wonderful partner, loving, caring, homely, intelligent and just wonderful. I am content, that is the way I like it.

Although that won't explain my absence from blogging, that is part of the reason. Little Al, got it right the first time. Why tarry in the office and lurk after work when you do have someone to go to? I treasure our time together, every moment spent.

What about now? Something strange is in the air. I feel incomplete suddenly and everything is changing.

UB has sold his business, and the auction in Sydney is 1/2 and hour into it. I wish him the best of luck. He will leave, AI will leave and Brisbane will have 2 more stalwart whom friends I count friends gone. True, they might have been my greatest critics once, but we have that over us now. Once things were... realigned.

Things that people respect, strength, resolute determination, hope, courage and attitude. Now that was easy to say...

Business changes are afoot at the end of the year. Debts to be paid, money to be made, some will suceed while others will slowly crumble.

Relationships change, friends leave, people seperate. Lives are lost, and the bright life is created yet in others, and of these; some will never see the light of day. A sad thing indeed.

A quoted blessing from a book I read: "Grandfather dies, Father dies, Son dies." It is the nature of things to die and to end, each in it's time. And as we end our lives on this earth, what is it that we can tell ourselves we have achieved?

What is our purpose here? Which things are REALLY important in our lives?

Oh well. I have to go, I'm going to be late for an appointment.

Chest Freezer

Updating

We talk about putting people on pedestals all the time. If you never know them enough, don't see them for ages, nothing changes within yourself and how you perceive them. Some people never look back for fear of destroy memories they cherish.

I find facing these memories in person; in real life "updates" the person on the pedestal. You see them as they are today, not how you always imagined them to be. You see the "now", and reality. And once you see all that and more, you step out from the past.

And now into the present, we take on new challenges and look ahead.